If there was a way that I could somehow stop myself from being selfless in a relationship, I would. In an ideal world, the more you give the more you get - but this is real life and maybe I should just accept the fact that that's not how its ever going to be. How is it that no one sees how deeply afraid we were that night? Is it something we all hide from each other, by mutual consent? Or do we share the same secret w/o knowing it? 

Okay. 

Nvm.