Work. Career

I miss my job. I miss my career. I miss the achievements. I miss the satisfaction whenever I see my clients having a wide smile on their face. I miss talking to my clients. I miss those hectic, crazy work schedule. I miss having not enough sleep due to work. I miss complaining about candidates/hiring managers. I miss interviewing and screening candidates. I miss those lunch hours hanging ard at raffles place. I miss the food that Aviel would bring to work for us. I miss submitting daily, weekly, monthly, quarterly, half-a-year and once a year reports. I miss the assessments, I miss those monthly training. I miss mentoring someone and telling ppl what is it to be a good recruiter. I miss achieving and hitting the monthly targets. I miss the incentives and IBI. I miss those CSA meetings.

Many a time, I ask myself "So what have I achieved in my life thus far?" I dont know...

Yes, I've a degree; I'm a graduate.
Yes, I was confirmed before my probation period ended.
Yes, I was promoted twice.
Yes, I've received compliments from both clients and candidates.

I miss my job and I wish can go back to recruitment but everyone knows its impossible. Will I regret? I hope not.....

He doesnt understand how it feels.
Nobody will anyway.

Women

some women want to be house wives, and some women want to be Harvard professors, and some women want to be porn stars, and some women want to be nuns, and some women want to be surgeons, some women wants to be headhunters and there is nothing wrong with anyone’s profession. I am sick of people being rude to women about their professions.

Sick

So stress with wedding preparation that I'm officially down with multi virus. TT 

The Ground

Finally settled the wedding date, venue, wedding photography, and our helpers list!! 

Next to catch up on wedding photoshoot, ROM application, theme, decorations, invites, games... 

OHMYGAWD. Headache. 😫

Birthday

This is probably one of the worst and longest birthday I ever had. It happened on me, again....

I don’t know why those things happen, and I wish I could stop them. But I can’t. 

Something horrible happens to everyone. It’s inescapable. Like Forrest Gump said, shit happens. These terrible experiences differ from person to person; what’s awful to me might be easy to conquer for you. We can’t play the “one-up” game with that sort of thing. But they make you grow, and they open your eyes a little wider. You gain that perspective your parents and teachers were always telling you about. Everything you do has a consequence, negative or positive, and it teaches you something. 

Now, tell me .. how do I resolve this? 

These Days ...

Sometimes you make me wonder if two of us complement each other.

These days I think a lot... 

Thinking and wondering in silence. 

Another

Today I received a FB notification from a groom-to-be friend announcing that they called off the wedding. I was in a deep shock wondering what on earth happened? This is the 2nd friend that called off their wedding this year which makes me really scare of my own marriage. 

A relationship is fragile. The reason why we often hurt more the ones who love us most is because we do not realize this. They get hurt.  And they get hurt the most by the people they love the most.

Relationships have become fragile because we don't express our love. We take people for granted. We think that others exist for us and can 'use' them whenever we want. We don't feel grateful for the presence of valuable people in our life. We miss all the primaries and suddenly, all secondaries and frivolities appear huge. We look at faults with microscopic eyes and ignore others' feelings. We realize people's value only when they are gone from our life.

When there is unconditional love and a deep understanding, everything else will seem trivial. When it is not there, relationships become fragile and eventually break.